But first, here is a bit of a comical illustration of how I've been feeling lately.
Homeschooling has been a roller coaster with loop deloop of emotions, twist and turneds of attitudes, inclines and free falls of learning, but also a rush of growth at the end.....just to do it all over again! But I'm afraid some days I just want to climb off that roller coaster before hurl. I am simply tired of the constant motion in the same direction....over and over again.
This is where I am right now. Does that mean I won't ever get back on? Nope! Because I know that this rollercoaster is the ride of a lifetime.
I knew I was not equipped for this but God has different plans! I often wonder if what I'm teaching is enough for my little people. But I also see the growth in their responsibility, character, and in their hearts. I am thankful for a husband that endures with me and gives me grace. I am thankful for the support if godly friends.
This is not just a change in their education this is a lifestyle change. I pray that God would give this weary mom endurance for this life."
It takes constant prayer and heart searching for this life.
I can't say that those prayer won't sound like this, "God, let me off this rollercoaster for awhile or I'm gonna hurl. Can I just float on the lazy river for a bit?" (Ok a bit of comic relief again there.)
Again with a coffee theme, I did find my "lazy river" in some scripture writing and paint exportation one day last week.
I read this today.
Wisdom- "She is more precious than Rubies; Nothing you desire can compare to her." Proverbs 3:15
This as well as Proverbs 31:10- were the basis for starting my @unpolishedrubies blog. "Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies." Though we can often feel unpolished, a woman who seeks wisdom is more precious to God than anything!
God can use the unpolished but not the unavailable. Ladies, be available and seek His wisdom!."
In the midst of the messiness God always reveals the blessings, for sure. And truthfully now that I write it all out I am finding a piece of that blessing. Because here in this place (this blog) it's about "Finding the Beauty of Gods Wisdom in the Messiness of Life".
I hope I will find you back here another time for some more heart to heart wisdom in the mess of life!