For his birthday last summer he got not one but two big dump trucks to push around outside. So of course his trucks would turn to a plow in a perfect blanket of white snow this winter.

The thing is, he is perfectly content (in the freezing wet snow) to steer in circles, driving the same path over and over. 

 I however, am not like that at all. It is no secret that I dislike winter and snow. OK, I'm being nice......let's face it I HATE IT! I know hate is a strong word but I do, I really really do! 

Olof (from from Disney's Frozen) and I would make good friends! I think of the lyrics his song In Summer.


When life gets rough I like to hold on to my dream

Of relaxing in the summer sun just lettin’ off steam!

But really though, I struggle so much in the winter! And I have been working through a few raw emotions to get to the reasons why this is a struggle for me. 

Y'all know I function best on a good routine. And for a work-at-home mama, normal routine is tossed out the window with the wintery mix on those snow days and delayed school openings!  I have lost count how many bootcamps I've missed because of school delays and closures. A peek into my "messy" emotions.....ANGER! Last years winter was even more of a struggle for me but God has really been working on my heart for sure. After working so hard to get healthy and build a routine the endless school cancellations and delays just left me frustrated and angry ...........then depressed and frustrated.......then anxious......and back to angry! Ok you get the picture. 

Much like the Israelite's who circled the dessert, I felt like I was wandering in the Wintery Wilderness, circling around in my emotions! 

Curious people these Israelite's, they had been blessed with freedom from their slavery to the Egyptians and promised a land of Milk & Honey, yet they complained at every turn. And when they thought that God had abandoned them because they weren't satisfied with the plan, they fashioned a golden calf to worship. Complaining and Idolatry.......Whew!

Oh, wait! That's me! Grip, Grip, complain , complain. "Another school delay? When is this winter going to be over? I hate the cold! These delays and closer's mess up my routine!" 

The good news my dear Rubies is that just as Moses intervened for the Israelites , Jesus also intervenes for us. He steers us back into the right direction into the Promise Land , or in my case the Spring and Summer months! 

I am happy to say that I have refocused and I am now working on the things God has put on my heart to do. And I am so excited about the new journey he has me on. 

Be Blessed my dear Rubies,
Melissa
 

I am super excited to bring you my new blog Unpolished Rubies. If you have been following Diaries of an OCD Mama you might be asking, "why the change"?

God has put this change on my heart for quite some time now. After being in the wedding industry and closing the doors (figuratively speaking) of MK MacGregor Designs & A Touch of Heaven three years ago, I had a much different vision for Diaries of an OCD Mama. I intended to post more Organization tips, Creative projects, and continue creating ideas for wedding Designs (OCD). But since then God has put me on a much different journey than I had expected. As I had less and less time for creative projects, God was putting other things on my heart. I never dreamed of becoming a writer of any sort but my heart has been leading me in a direction to share my life in a way that I hope would encourage others. It has been a stretching time these last few years and God has strengthened me in a areas I would have never imagined. I continue to discover the beauty of God's wisdom in my messy life everyday.

I can't say I recall a specific day or time but, God had been putting the concept of Unpolished Rubies on my heart well over a year ago. I had just been through an amazing journey finding strength in Jesus to first get healthy, loose some extra weight and, learn how to eat correctly; then gaining confidence in Him to train and compete in physique bodybuilding. 

But as they say, "what goes up must come down!" I found myself struggling again with sugar. (You can read my OCD Mama blog post on my struggle with sugar here). I questioned myself and even prayed, " God, why do I feel like such a mess again?" "How could I so easily loose control?" 

It had also been a  challenging year with my son in school and in his behavior. As a parent I also felt like a total mess! 

My Lord faithful to answer kept whispering ,"you are precious to me". He would bring my mind to Proverbs 31:10. 

Though I knew this was Gods truth  I couldn't  help but feel a bit Unpolished  compared to the virtuous woman  in Proverbs 31. 

But here is what I discovered ......... I believe that rubies have a significance to God because He also compares rubies to something else in a previous chapter of Proverbs. Proverbs 8:11.

I find it intriguing that this passage ( God's divine inspired word)  refers to wisdom as her.  Wisdom taking the gender of a woman? Wow! 

To God wisdom is far more precious than anything else to be desired . But what makes the Proverbs 31 Woman so precious? Her virtue.  

So here is my breakdown of my thoughts on these verses ......... how about a little "if than" (geometry). Psst, I hatted geometry but we're gonna give it a try. 
IF: 
Wisdom= More precious than  Rubies 
AND
Virtuous woman =  More precious Rubies
THAN: 
A woman seeking wisdom = God's Precious Rubies........ even when she feels a little unpolished! 

 I really do want to seek the wisdom of God in my life......even when  it is A BIG OLE' MESS! NO really.....BECAUSE IT'S A BIG OLE' MESS!  

So here (on my blog) you will find my crazy mess of a life......... the good, the bad and, certainly the ugly. BUT you will also find me face down with my hand in the air seeking His wisdom in the mess! 

My sweet, sweet Rubies join me here to 
Discover the Beauty of Gods Wisdom in the MESSINESS of Life! 

I hope you will enjoy the new changes!